dreams and life...

the a/c keeps me cold

the brights lights keep me numb

the breathing goes on and i keep living

the bright surreal dream

In the name of religion...

For the last two days there is a constant menice going on in full swing behind our office. In the posh residential housing complex (rental for 2BHK starting at Rs. 50k per month) situated just behind our office building there is some sadhu who is in full action, catering to the religious idiosyncracies of the rich and the wannabes. 

I rarely use such harsh words, and mostly pefer to be in a state of happy indifference, but the status-quo was broken by a headache and irritation resulting from the loudspeakers blaring so called bhajans, which by the way have been composed on the latest hindi movie music (read Himesh et. al.).

Two things struck me -

• The business acumen of these so called "religious preachers". Really admire the way they have sliced and diced the market and done the market segmentation of religious disclosures (or similar sounding). And within it, identified a niche for themselves in the form of the affluent upper middle class people. 
• The cacophony to which people are ready to sumbit themselves in the name of religion. 

At times I think, expecting a basic level of maturity from people when they act as a member of a group (submitting themselves to herd mentality) is probably too much to ask for.

Free advice...

We all are surrounded by so many well-wishers who want to fix a thousand things in us. But little does anyone realise, that beyond a certain point, which is, after the age of 12; we tend to develop a fair understanding of what is right. 

And by the time we mature into adulthood, we absolutely know how things ought to be in our life. And in complete awareness of the fact, we behave the way that we behave. Yet have to keep going through the motions of listening to so much of gyan from others on how should our lives be.

How useful it would have been if anyone pointed out how exactly to reach where ever they want us to, things would be so much better. But again that would start yet another round of circular conversation :p

Relationship...

There have been a zillion interpretation of this word, its meaning and implication. Just to add to this chaos, here is my take on the same-

Relationship is something that is build piece by piece, one experience at a time. Let it flourish on its own and take its own natural course. There is a lot that can be learned in this journey. And lot to un-learn. There is so much that it un-burdens and so much that its ingrains. 

Just enjoy the journey and breathtaking pathway that forms.

PS: Thanks Aradhna

After thoughts: Only after writing it I realised that the term relationship and its definition (offcourse the one thats my brainwave ;) ) has such a deeper implication. Relationship isn't just confined to two people involved romantically. A relationship has to developed with oneself, with ones surrounding and the people for whom we care. It has to be nurtured, pruned and maintained with utmost love, care and affection. 

So many times we find ourselves so engrossed in looking out for external relationships that we often forget to seek inner harmony and hence loose out on much more than what can be ever gained externally.

Idea of a perfect sunday...

Visiting a friends place on saturday afternoon... 

random raoming through the evening, late into the night... 

make a perfect plan for the sunday morning... 

waking up late ;)

feeling dejected and walking out for tea...

sudden urge to head towards the seaface...

picking up two newspapers on the way... 

finding a perfect bench in the shade...

idea of reading the newspaper vanishes in ten mins flat... 

stretch on the bench and have a luxury nap...

feeling the breeze...

sunlight filtering thru the leaves....

gazing at the open blue sky...

head towards the sea....

sit on the rocks...

soak my feet...

hear the waves...

see a lone seagull soaring... 

into the vast expanse...

Template goof up...

Seems that in one more valent effort to move from two-column to three-cloumn blog template I have somehow managed to screw all the widgets :(

Have backed up the previous version of the same, but feeling completely lost...

Monday...

Somethings never change.

No matter how much you pep talk with yourself. Go through the entire hoop-la of bidding adieu to the past with the year thats gone by and welcoming the new year with excitment and a fresh mind set. There is onething that never goes... 

MONDAY OFFICE BLUES :(

Crossroad...

As I stand on one more crossroad and look forward for guidance I find some words of comfort from The Mother - 

There is only one way of getting out of the confusion (which is the result of mixed and conflicting desires); and that way is quietness, peace, confidence in the Divine's Grace and silence in the mind, to let it receive the right inspiration which is waiting above for the silence and the quietness to enable it to manifest.

The spirit of Mumbai...

My life seems to be eventful as always. Just when I decide to call it quits at my job and take a short five day break before I am suppose to join my new job, the worst terror attack in the history of Mumbai happens.

I was holed up in my flat for three full days, feeling frustrated, angry and lost. The only relief was that I did not have a television at home and hence was saved from the mental agony of watching the gory pictures and the mindless reporting that consumed the minds of so many of my friends. As for all those who had a television at home, the un-ending sequence of events (gun shots, blasts, hostage situation) made the entire experience so full of anxietry that many of them spend the entire weekend brooding over it.

Its ironic that at times like this the major public broadcast mediums (TV & Radio) decide to supress these human emotions even furthur. All of them go over the top talking about the spirit of Mumbai, barely realising that the already stressed out common man of Mumbai, at testing times like thses instead of hiding behind the facade of bravado needs a vent.

I strongly believe that at times like these its ok to express and to acknowledge the emotions that play in ones mind. I for one felt sad, vulnerable, angry, victimised, frustrated and insecure. And I am not afraid to acknowledge, vent and get these feelings out of system.

de-frosting...

Present: With the flow of words and the clarity of thoughts long lost in the mayhem of survival, I am only to posting to register in my thoughts that I exist. I have always wondered and will probably keep wondering as to why are people the way they are ?

      

Prolog: The apathy which people show in there professional conduct really makes me wonder as what is it that drives them to behaving in such a fashion.

lFlashback: July 31st 2008 holds a special significance for me, I completed six months at my current organisation and I slipped while boarding the local train both events have had a deep impact on me and will remain ingrained in my memory for a long time.

Zooming back to present: For the past three months I have been under considerable amount of stress. There are multiple reasons for that, amongst them, the series of mindless events happening at workplace which have only added up to it. I have been in a state of mental deep frost for such a long time now its almost hurting to think.

As has been a habit for me, moments after I start to recover from this pathetic mental state, by default I turn to Osho for some wisdom widgets. He is what he says –

All that this world needs is a good cleansing of the heart of all the inhibitions of the past. And laughter and tears can do both. Tears will take out all the agony that is hidden inside you and laughter will take all that is preventing your ecstasy. Once you have learned the artyou will be immensely surprised.

And then I realise, in the past few months I have done neither (laughed or cried) for a real long time.