Showing posts with label Perfect Sunday. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Perfect Sunday. Show all posts

Saturday, October 19, 2013

"Why me?"


Just complete reading this article by Dr. Deepak Chopra - Why Does God Allow Evil ?

In this article he raises an issue which thanks to the media onslaught, have to grapple with on a day-to-day basis. Reading / Hearing about horrific acts of violence that are happening the world over often gets one thinking and questioning the very basic principles on which our personal belief system rests. Does God exist ? If he does, then why is a mute spectator in all the madness that is there around us. Why does he yet innocent people suffer and die.

Although the post talks about public tragedies, his suggestions to the issue (I will not call them as solutions) are equally valid in the case of personal suffering too. The pain that follows a personal suffering, leaves one numb emotionally and intellectually, is often impenetrable. We try to search for and attribute meanings to the suffering and in turn seek answer to one question that can at times haunt us for years - "Why me?".

No matter how hard we think over it, the closure seems to be elusive and this chain of thoughts become a downward spiral sucking in all mental and emotional energy.

The way out is not simple, it requires courage and acceptance. Courage to step out of the denial mode and coming to terms with the reality. Whatever happened, is past tense now, accepting this as a fact of life. The final step and what will actually drive things forward is the magic word - "Faith".

And just while I was writing this post an analogy came to my mind which seems apt here, for a ship to stay afloat in water and to keep moving it requires three things -
  • Ballast - which gives it stability. Similarly, courage is our ballast which acts as a reality check and gives us stability in troubled times. 
  • Rudder - which helps it move in a particular direction. Similarly, acceptance and moving on is the rudder which can give a new direction and purpose to our life.  
  • Propeller - which gives it thrust. Similarly, faith either at a personal level or faith in something external (people or religion) can be the driving force which will literally propel in the right direction. 
The sea will always be rough and harsh, however as always the choice lies with us, whether we would give in to it a remain at its mercy or if we want to steer our life in the direction that we would like to. 

PS: Writing this post has been cathartic for me. I was struggling with a few thoughts in my mind for past few weeks and was unable to make a headway. Reading the article and then thinking and writing about it has cleared my mind and helped me re-focus :) 

Tuesday, February 05, 2013

Midnight's Children - Thoughts and After-thoughts



This post is not a review of the movie. 

Although I must admit, it was brilliant to watch. A bit disappointing when I compare it with the novel. However, the sheer visual delight and screenplay more than compensated for the erratic narrative. And what made it an even more enjoyable watch was that I managed to find a near empty sunday afternoon show. 

"The difference between reality and fiction? Fiction has to make sense "- Tom Clancy

Read this quote on sunday morningand it bounced back in my mind when I was seeing the movie - Midnight's Children. And has been ever echoing in my mind. Nudging me to give space and dimension. 

The story line is layered with multiple themes (realistic and abstract) and full of allegory. And yet as the story progresses, each of them flow along with it sometimes in parallel, at times intersecting and many a times in disconnect. And yet as the climax approaches they all entwine and start heading towards a culmination as if causation was working its magical charm. Wish the same could be said about reality. 

How I wish reality could make sense and provide a sense of closure on so many parallels - thoughts (real, unreal, imagined and surreal), hopes, experiences (lived and vicarious) that keep running in our head. 

Monday, August 22, 2011

On Pain and Love

In a workshop on "Self Healing through Creative Writing", that I attended last weekend during one of the exercises we were told to explore various themes in our lives and make space for them to surface and express themselves. This often is the first step towards closure. Catharsis through writing is something I had been  doing for a while but then over the last few months had totally stopped. This has lead to a strong feeling of frustration at my inability to express.

However over the course of this two day workshop, I took the courage to once again let the feelings take over and express themselves through words. Some of them came in a natural flow, whereas others are still in the process of taking shape.

Following a Haiku like structure, using word economy and visualization here is what I wrote on two central themes of my life -

On Pain -

Pain striked
Cold numbness followed
I kept breathing
Life moved on 

On love -

Your embrace
Tender and warm
Heals me
Completes me


There are also two verses that I wrote in Hindi, which I have also posted on my hindi bloghttp://anubhutiyaa.blogspot.com/

जीवन 

चार कोस 
जीवन यात्रा 
प्रारब्ध, प्रारंभ
विस्मय और अंत 

शाम 

स्याह शाम में 
सिमट गयी 
सारे शेहेर की उदासी 
और मेरे मन का अँधेरा 

This was an attempt from my end to atleast get started with writing, the way I had done it in the past and hope to keep exploring and keep posting more.

Monday, March 15, 2010

Idea of a perfect weekend

Saturday


Sleeping till noon
Walking up and sitting with a mug of green tea, enjoying the silence both outside and within :)
Finishing off the newspaper at my own leisurely pace
Watching Alice in Wonderland in 3D Format at World's Largest IMAX Dome Theater at Wadala
Dinner at a Punjabi roadside Dhaba (meal for two Rs. 58/- all inclusive) :P

Sunday

Night Out :D
Depart for Lonavala at 0430 am
Awesome roller-coaster bus ride
Trek to Fort Tung
Great view from the top
Lunch on the way back (at some random place)
Uploading Pics on Facebook
Adding new friends on Facebook
Leaving the room as unorganized as it has been for the past 3 weeks ;)
Prepared to doze off for 10 hours straight :D

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Trek to Harishchandgad

Trek to Harishchandgad

One more trek completed in this month :)

I had heard and read a lot of reviews about Harishchandgad, which is the located in the Malshej Ghat and is the second highest peak in the Shayadri range. Upon getting an invite for the trek I was both excited and apprehensive. Excited because I had really enjoyed my last trek with V Hikerz. And apprehensive as the trek had been classified as “medium to tough” by most of the trekkers who had blogged about it. Well aware of my current state of fitness I was in a state of doubt and flux whether I should go for it or not. Ultimately after weighing my options and have a brief discussion with Varun and Samiir, who pep talked me out of it, decided to take the plunge.



After my last trek I had promised myself to be in a slightly better shape and be more regular at Gym. However, that wasn’t supposed to be. In the span between my last trek and this one (which was two weeks) , I went to the gym a grand total of two times L
And also the night before we had to start, I arrived late from work and for some odd reason decided to give sleep a miss :P


So on Friday night, with one night out and a complete day at work and a confused body clock headed to Dadar. We took the last local train to Kalyan at 12:55. From Kalyan we took the first bus out and reached the starting point. I slept through most part of the bus ride and missed most of the view, the only thing that I remembered was the chilly breeze that kept hitting me and how desperately it tried to sleep in the rollercoaster bus ride. We reached the start point (Khubi Phata, Khireshwar Village- Malshej Ghat) within three hours. Where we were greeted by an amazing view of the valley and pleasant sunshine.


I can divide this entire trek into three parts-
· Initial Ascent – Khireshwar to Tolar Khid
· Rock Patch (which will be the focal point of this post)
· Final Walk


Initial Ascent – Motivated by scenic beauty, amazing breeze and a hearty breakfast, we started the trek. The initial part was fairly easy. Walking through the jungle amidst ample shade was a fairy enjoyable experience.


Rocky Patch - After about an hour and half we reached the point from where the rocky patch started. This was the part of the trek about which I was very apprehensive, the reason being I am a bit scared of open heights. There were ample stories about this patch that I read online. So my anxiety started to shoot the moment we reached here.


Now let me digress a bit.


Trekking is something I have been thinking about and had always aspired to do. My past trek experiences have made me realize how I need to work on developing more physical stamina and overcoming my fear for open heights to become a regular trekker. I have decided to use these two reasons as a motivation to stretch and challenge myself.


The only way to fight your deepest fear is to confront it and be ready to put yourself to the test. The rock patch at Harishchandgad made me precisely do that. I had this open rock patch which became steeper as we progressed and top it we had a deep valley just behind us. The view was intimidating and the very thought – one slip and ….. (didn’t have the nerve to complete the sentence) left me frozen.


The moment of confrontation had come and I knew that there was no turning back from it. I started to take deep breaths and completely focusing on my footsteps, handgrips and weight balancing.


The thing that I find funny and ironic about myself is I tend think, panic, fret so much before starting something challenging. Usually after making the plunge these is barely anytime for cognitive diligence and all that remains is pure action.


In this case since the situation was much more primal, me against the brute and unforgiving forces of nature, I had to focus every bit of my energy to the task in hand, which by the way was – walking :P


The intensity of the focus that I have experienced while negotiating such rock patches over the past few treks has been beyond comparison. It made me realize that we have such a negative connotation of the word “fear”. Little do we realize that at times fear can drive us to achieve what we would never have done otherwise. It helps us stretch and challenge ourselves and all the boundaries that we have imposed on ourselves.


Reminded me of the voice over of a soft drink commercial


Dar sabko lagta hai
Gala sabka sukhta hai
Dar se mat daro
Dar ke aage
badho
Kyonki darr ke aage jeet hai



Which loosely translates to –


Every feels afraid
Everyone’s throat parches
Don’t be afraid of
fear
March ahead of it
Because beyond fear lies victory


So after overpowering my internal fears and successfully negotiating the rock patch, reached a plateau and started the third phase of the trek.



Final Walk – This part of the trek consisted of walking up and down seven hillocks. It is during this phase that the exertion of the trek started to show its affect and to make things worse the sun was at its peak, with very little shade available. The terrain was mostly rocky and flat. We had to take more frequent breaks. My shoulders started to hurt, due to the weight of the backpack. This patch took us little more than an hour to complete.


We were so glad to reach the final destination. We found a perfect cave for us to stay, a helpful village couple who assured us to take care of our belongings and cook for us at night. Enjoyed the wonderful sunset at Konkankada (which is a sheer cliff with a vertical drop of 1700 feet, which gives an awesome view of the Malshej Ghat) and got a chance to click some nice snaps.


For the descent we were able to find a route that was much less strenuous. It was via Pachnai. It took us less than an hour to descent. From the base village we boarded a State Transport bus to Rajur and then book a jeep from there upto Kasara. From Kasara it was a local train journey via Dadar to Borivali.


I reached home tired, exhausted, without a bath for two days, still feeling recharged and motivated from within :)


Thanks V Hikerz for planning such an amazing trek and also making me a part of it.


Now my next target – Do some monsoon treks in the Sahyadris

Monday, February 15, 2010

Trek to Bhupatgad...

Trek to Bhupatgad

So I am four trek old now. Here goes the list in chronological order -

  • Kalsubai - Highest peak on the western ghats, was only told so somewhere mid-way during the trek :(
  • Korigad - Was suppose to be a simple treak, which also made me realize how terribly out of shape I was. And yet did nothing about it.
  • Torna - Same as above, only this was a medium grade trek so made my body ache for full 4 days
  • Bhupatgad - First trek of 2010. Was a simple and fun trek. What made it even more enjoyable was the bus ride through the wilderness and the vast expanses of open spaces.

The trek to Bhupatgad happened on 14th Feb. One day which has been hyped and exalted to levels of insanity and become a big marketing opportunity. This is one particular day when singles are made to feel miserable by one and all.

Fortunately for me this trek happened and gave me an opportunity to re-connect with myself.

About the trek- The journey to the base village was a wondeful 3 hours ride from Mumbai. Initial part of it was on the Mumbai- Surat highway. However the best part came as we moved away from the highway to the roads less travelled. I am sorry I dont remember any of the locations by name, if you happen to be interested in getting the exact road directions please let me know, will connect you to my friends who are give the exact road directions.

The roads were in an amazing condition making the ride a real pleasure. And to top it were the barren and beautiful landscapes. The long streches of barren land with patches of green was such a pleasent sight and contrast to the space starved city of Mumbai. Strong gushes of fresh air on the face were a reminder that nature still exists in a pure form in not so distant places. As far as the trek goes, was a pretty easy one. Even for an out of shape person like me :)

During the trek, the view of the surrounding peaks and valleys was a beautiful sight. Luckily for us, even though we started the trek pretty late in the morning, the heat wasn't much and there was ample of shade on the way. Overall an easy trek and great way to enjoy yourself.

The reason why I would remember it is, this trek give me ample of time to re-connect with myself. Valentine day is celebrated as a day on which you are suppose to show your love and affection towards your significant other. However this Valentine Day I chose to spend quality time with myself. Realising that no matter how many trials and tribulations life throws at us, what really matters is how we choose to face them AND despite what life throws at us how much can we really enjoy and live each moment. This is one thing that we have to learn at an individual level, because filling inner void and emptiness by all things external (be it a relationship or material things) is a sure shot recipe for disaster.

Ayn Rand beautifully sums this up in The Fountainhead -

“To say ‘I love you,’ one must first know how to say the ‘I.’”

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Trek to Torna...

13 Spetember 2009 - Trek to Torna

Trek to Torna


Thursday, May 21, 2009

Icecream effect...

This is what happens when I get an large cup of ice-cream to eat, all by myself ;)

The good boy pose

The offensive starts
Attack....
Finally...

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Idea of a Perfect weekend...

Simple joys of life are like highly perishable commodities. We need to savour them right away or else they are gone, forever. Just like an icecream which if held for long will start to melt, loose its form and soon perish.


Have lost so many of such moments, decide to go ahead and atleast put one of it to use.

Mom gave me a surprise vist. Reached here on friday evening. Instead of asking her to take a auto and reach home on her own, despite my crazy workload, decided to rushed off, picked her from station, had a quick dinner on the way and then reached home. Although I had to work pretty late through the night, but felt that the effort was worth it.

On saturday went grocery shopping with her. Picked up Paneer and Jowar bhakari (a maharashtrian roti preperation made from millets) on the way home. While mom was relaxing, dashed to the kitchen and made Paneer Makhanwala. For a pleasent surprise in ended up almost the way I was expecting it to look and taste and the best part was even mom was impressed. Experienced a few moments of unadulterated happiness.  

Small joy... lived and enjoyed to the fullest :)

Monday, February 16, 2009

Idea of a perfect weekend

Attending a college batchmate's marriage on saturday-
















Sleeping like a log thru the sunday morning, followed by a mug full of ginger tea, finishing the sunday newspaper back-to-back :)

Movies watched-

Syriana - A geo-political thriller based on the oil cartel politics and the massive power play involved. 

Magicians - A light hearted drama-comedy movie, with loads of sub-dued british style humour. 

Friday, February 06, 2009

Pulp fiction

After so much wishful thinking, finally attending the Kala Ghoda Art Festival which is organised by the Kala Ghoda Association. This has become a annual feature which attracts artists and audience from far and wide. 


I registered myself for a workshop on pulp-fiction. I have always been fasinated by this form literature. Pulp-fiction is created for purely for commercial consumption. This is a form of writing which has been created for the masses. Its a complete anti-thesis of convetional literarture which is exists to fulfill much higher and nobler causes. Art for the masses sake, thats what it can be called. 

This form of writing has been hugely pouplar in the vernacular medium. There was a big wave of pulp fiction in the 1970s and 80s. Noted columnist Mrinal Pande has written an interesting article on - The life and death of Hindi puld fiction

Really looking forward to some enjoyable time this weekend :)

And yet again, one more idea for a perfect sunday (and saturday as well)


Monday, January 19, 2009

Idea of a perfect sunday...

Visiting a friends place on saturday afternoon... 
random raoming through the evening, late into the night... 
make a perfect plan for the sunday morning... 

waking up late ;)

feeling dejected and walking out for tea...
sudden urge to head towards the seaface...
picking up two newspapers on the way... 

finding a perfect bench in the shade...
idea of reading the newspaper vanishes in ten mins flat... 
stretch on the bench and have a luxury nap...

feeling the breeze...
sunlight filtering thru the leaves....
gazing at the open blue sky...

head towards the sea....
sit on the rocks...
soak my feet...

hear the waves...
see a lone seagull soaring... 
into the vast expanse...













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