Free advice...

We all are surrounded by so many well-wishers who want to fix a thousand things in us. But little does anyone realise, that beyond a certain point, which is, after the age of 12; we tend to develop a fair understanding of what is right. 

And by the time we mature into adulthood, we absolutely know how things ought to be in our life. And in complete awareness of the fact, we behave the way that we behave. Yet have to keep going through the motions of listening to so much of gyan from others on how should our lives be.

How useful it would have been if anyone pointed out how exactly to reach where ever they want us to, things would be so much better. But again that would start yet another round of circular conversation :p

Relationship...

There have been a zillion interpretation of this word, its meaning and implication. Just to add to this chaos, here is my take on the same-

Relationship is something that is build piece by piece, one experience at a time. Let it flourish on its own and take its own natural course. There is a lot that can be learned in this journey. And lot to un-learn. There is so much that it un-burdens and so much that its ingrains. 

Just enjoy the journey and breathtaking pathway that forms.

PS: Thanks Aradhna

After thoughts: Only after writing it I realised that the term relationship and its definition (offcourse the one thats my brainwave ;) ) has such a deeper implication. Relationship isn't just confined to two people involved romantically. A relationship has to developed with oneself, with ones surrounding and the people for whom we care. It has to be nurtured, pruned and maintained with utmost love, care and affection. 

So many times we find ourselves so engrossed in looking out for external relationships that we often forget to seek inner harmony and hence loose out on much more than what can be ever gained externally.

Idea of a perfect sunday...

Visiting a friends place on saturday afternoon... 

random raoming through the evening, late into the night... 

make a perfect plan for the sunday morning... 

waking up late ;)

feeling dejected and walking out for tea...

sudden urge to head towards the seaface...

picking up two newspapers on the way... 

finding a perfect bench in the shade...

idea of reading the newspaper vanishes in ten mins flat... 

stretch on the bench and have a luxury nap...

feeling the breeze...

sunlight filtering thru the leaves....

gazing at the open blue sky...

head towards the sea....

sit on the rocks...

soak my feet...

hear the waves...

see a lone seagull soaring... 

into the vast expanse...

Template goof up...

Seems that in one more valent effort to move from two-column to three-cloumn blog template I have somehow managed to screw all the widgets :(

Have backed up the previous version of the same, but feeling completely lost...

Monday...

Somethings never change.

No matter how much you pep talk with yourself. Go through the entire hoop-la of bidding adieu to the past with the year thats gone by and welcoming the new year with excitment and a fresh mind set. There is onething that never goes... 

MONDAY OFFICE BLUES :(

Crossroad...

As I stand on one more crossroad and look forward for guidance I find some words of comfort from The Mother - 

There is only one way of getting out of the confusion (which is the result of mixed and conflicting desires); and that way is quietness, peace, confidence in the Divine's Grace and silence in the mind, to let it receive the right inspiration which is waiting above for the silence and the quietness to enable it to manifest.

The spirit of Mumbai...

My life seems to be eventful as always. Just when I decide to call it quits at my job and take a short five day break before I am suppose to join my new job, the worst terror attack in the history of Mumbai happens.

I was holed up in my flat for three full days, feeling frustrated, angry and lost. The only relief was that I did not have a television at home and hence was saved from the mental agony of watching the gory pictures and the mindless reporting that consumed the minds of so many of my friends. As for all those who had a television at home, the un-ending sequence of events (gun shots, blasts, hostage situation) made the entire experience so full of anxietry that many of them spend the entire weekend brooding over it.

Its ironic that at times like this the major public broadcast mediums (TV & Radio) decide to supress these human emotions even furthur. All of them go over the top talking about the spirit of Mumbai, barely realising that the already stressed out common man of Mumbai, at testing times like thses instead of hiding behind the facade of bravado needs a vent.

I strongly believe that at times like these its ok to express and to acknowledge the emotions that play in ones mind. I for one felt sad, vulnerable, angry, victimised, frustrated and insecure. And I am not afraid to acknowledge, vent and get these feelings out of system.

de-frosting...

Present: With the flow of words and the clarity of thoughts long lost in the mayhem of survival, I am only to posting to register in my thoughts that I exist. I have always wondered and will probably keep wondering as to why are people the way they are ?

      

Prolog: The apathy which people show in there professional conduct really makes me wonder as what is it that drives them to behaving in such a fashion.

lFlashback: July 31st 2008 holds a special significance for me, I completed six months at my current organisation and I slipped while boarding the local train both events have had a deep impact on me and will remain ingrained in my memory for a long time.

Zooming back to present: For the past three months I have been under considerable amount of stress. There are multiple reasons for that, amongst them, the series of mindless events happening at workplace which have only added up to it. I have been in a state of mental deep frost for such a long time now its almost hurting to think.

As has been a habit for me, moments after I start to recover from this pathetic mental state, by default I turn to Osho for some wisdom widgets. He is what he says –

All that this world needs is a good cleansing of the heart of all the inhibitions of the past. And laughter and tears can do both. Tears will take out all the agony that is hidden inside you and laughter will take all that is preventing your ecstasy. Once you have learned the artyou will be immensely surprised.

And then I realise, in the past few months I have done neither (laughed or cried) for a real long time.

plunge in...

Osho says -

The mind is a great philosopher. And life is not a philosophy, life is a reality. And philosophy is an escape from reality; philosophy means thinking.


Life is — there is no question of thought. You can simply jump into it.


The ancient pond
a frog jumps in
the sound


Just like that, you can jump into this ancient pond of life.
You can know it only by jumping into it. There is no other way to know life;
thinking about it is the surest way to miss it

The mental imagery that these words create is remarkable.

It brings to mind the old fable of a frog who had lived his entire life in a well. For the frog the entire world was his well. Existence of something beyond the walls was something beyond his imagination. One fine day, upon being challenged by someone he stepped out of the well and what he encountered came as a real shock to him. The external reality threatened all his existing notions and needed a new perspective. Which, as is also the case with most of us, he did not have the courage to adapt to. And, like most of us, he decided to plunge back into to the safety and security of his well.

Life is motion.Yet, most of the time, all that we do is mere quasi-movement.

who am i ?

"We don't know who we are until we see what we can do"

Is that the answer to my quest for self-discovery ?